Dream~ as you can

Dream...define dream...!everyone has a dream...

got a conversation with him jus now...makes me ponder lots of things...marriage, career, to build a family, HUH M 25 ALREADY!.. the right time to think about all these things....marriage...am i ready? i swear after wut happened to me in couple years really make grow mature...LOVE does exists...to be LOVED is one thing...TO LOVE is another thing....n m in that phase NOW! to love n to be loved....that's means SACRIFICE is involved..my father said to me long time ago " if u wanna get married, make sure ur husband understands u well, BUT to make him understands u, u have to understand him first, IF SACRIFICE IS NEEDED, then u need to let go ur own...FOR THE SAKE OF HAPPINESS , REMEMBER! life is too short..world is just a stage for us...AND we r the actors"

WE ARE THE ACTORS . WORLD IS JUST A TEMPORARY TERMINALS. WE STOP THERE. FIND WUTEVER NECESSARY TO BRING BACK TO THE PERMANENT LIFE.

such things happen in between once u move to another stage of life...i saw my father, though he's not having any degree, master or even PhD but experiences taught him to be a man, wut can i say " a walking brain-life-machine"?he also said : "men will identify their self-esteem, their feelings of self-worth, their feelings of success, feeling of happiness, feeling of contentment on how financially successful they are" Is it true??? I DONT NOE...might be yes...money is the key word!

Allah created us with a purpose! must remember this ... i may not a good muslimah to say that, but i noe my limits....i noe my responsibility, i noe my duty, n i noe WHO I AM! thts is enough! TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED...is not tht easy....fall in love is easy...but to take care of such a gift is difficult....LOVE is a gift...WHY ALLAH SENT HIM TO ME? there must be a reason....MAYB THTS THE TEST FOR ME...or maybe HE'S THE ONE? WHO CAN TAKE MY HAND TO THE LIGHTS....only He knows....

sacrifice....(my father's fav song by elton john...heee) YES HE IS! he likes the song! ...i have had this conversation with my father long long time ago ( cant remember when) i asked him " wut if i get married n my husband is foreigner" my first question, he just said " tht's is ur choice how can i make decision for you if u're able to think of ur own! my second question " wut if I NEVER GET MARRIED? then he laughed at me saying tht is a stupid question i ever asked...( yelah i never had any bf since primary school until i got in uia ...2 pon in 2007..)PLUS my family sebelah mak sume kawen lambat! even my aunty ade je yg xkawen TP DUIT BERKEPUK! hehehehe....he said " kalo xkawen xkan ayah nk biaq" hmmm....

pas2....i started to ask more n more...as a man....he said " bukan isteri ja yg kena dijaga.....husband pon kena jaga...kena belai..kena sayang...hati kena jaga..ingat! kalo skang syurga bawah tapak kaki mak, nnt kawen bawah tapak kaki suami" TERPINTAS KT KEPALA ( CIAN JD POMPUAN...HEHEHE...FEMINISM betollll) byk lagiiiiii sebnarnya...as I SAID LAH MY FATHER NEH USTAZ KEJAP...ROCK KEJAP.SENGAL KEJAP..GILA MEROYAN KEJAP...

hmmm i noe m going to pass by this stage..WHERE I STARTED TO THINK ABOUT MARRIAGE! seriously last couple weeks...that thing happen to appear more often....i said to myself THIS IS THE TIME! to be serious...IN LOVE...TO BE LOVED N TO LOVE.....but is it true wut my father said to me....SACRIFICE NEEDED??

my mother asking me the same question also....but i dont have time to talk to her yet...about him.about me. wut m i going to do next.bla bla bla...BUT I SWEAR! THIS TIME IS SERIOUS! (penah ke ak xseryes??...) but m sure my mother xckp ape2...PLUS MY COUSIN IS GOING TO GET MARRY IN MAY huh lagilah soklan mcm2 ALA2 BILA NK KAWEN akan dipersoalkan hmmm....lumrah hidup lah 2! me? ready ke? I AM! but...i got to settle many things before going to the next stage which is MARRIAGE...tp...is he willingly waiting for me? that is depends on him to decide...i dont have right to make decision upon him....who am i to do tht kn?( am not a policy maker..hee) ...plus Allah knows wut is best for me....=)

well time will tell...nothing is certain in drawing our own future...but if SACRIFICE is needed in order to seek for happiness i would say " MY PLEASURE"...time is that matters...

i may not have experiences once talking about married life....but i got frens who get married..and sometimes they share their stories...i gain experiences from them....hmmm..(time will tell).. well wut i noe is that marriage is not jus like a contract...but more than that...is beyond that...is about building the nex generation...about to create new ummah....that is married....not to play play sepak2 masuk gol! NO! in Islam marriage is govern by mutual rights...the rights of the husband, the rights of the wife, the children... and within an atmosphere of LOVE and RESPECT!

as Allah said : "And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your hearts. Verily in that are signs for those who reflect." (Qur'an 30:21)

is not a big issue...simple...both parties must respect with each other...tht's all....so i can conclude here...if wife willingly sacrifice her own dream or her own desire for the sake of her family so do the husband! am i right?

back to mine : if he is the one Ya Allah show me the way...show me wut am i suppose to do...i need your guidance...

some might says is to early to think about tht but for me at the age of 25 u should have to think n to think n think. people asking here n there " when wil u get married" thts y i should think...huuuu

p/s i need a DOCTOR! ( i think now i hv my own doctor..hehe...even he is unofficially said that...but my heart says so....( mmg xmalu declare sendiri) hehehe)

p/s/s woman....though she is strong...she needs man by her side =) (suka words kt pic atas 2...common words...but ve a deep meaning)