i am so happy when i am with you

few weekends past but i still feel the excitement =) faiz and i had a great weekends together. we go hiking and tht was a great moment ever! i always wanted to have this kind of activities but i have no partner of doing it. Apart from love to read books on weekend i actually love to travel around with someone that i loved the most =) ( in case u dont noe).. i like cycling, hiking, skydiving and whatnot. seriously but time now is a matter of fact. ( due to i have already found someone who can accompany me..heeeee). but the past weekends was a trip down memory lane =) . faiz and i spent time together and it was such a great moment that make me wanna write it here to share with..=)

Broga hill 7th May 2011

it was friday nite( though it almost 2.00am) when faiz arrived here (kl) safely from JB straight away to uia to pick me up. we have to be there before the sunrise. since it was 2.00 in the morning then we decided to go lepaking before heading to the broga hills. we had supper at malinja recommended by faiz . ( char kewtioew sedappp).. i had my hot nescafe intending to stay awakes all night until the dawn. i was very excited that day, firstly because i hv plenty of time to spend with faiz and secondly my dream will come true and the first list is done!=)

we arrived semenyih about 5.00 in the morning. all things packed accordingly. ready to hike =) haha.. a lot o people there, so not to worry about being lost whilst hiking..=) fist stop...PANCITTT! i thought it was not as high as gunung ledang but i was wrong, tinggi lah jugak boleh buat jantung denyut laju2..hehe ( dah lama tak exercise). it took an hour (yeke) to be at the peak..(byk kali benti) plus amek2 pic ( owhhh pics with him...i xde pic...huuu).. most exciting, we had a chance to see the sunrise! yeahhhhh!!!! really enjoy!!!!

i am very happy. tht is all i can say =)) up there we took a lot of pictures..hehe...then cane nk turun??? tht was too peaky up there and a bit slippery. so you have to wear a shoe tht has a good grip so that can balance you while u hiking down the hills. i turun meniarap okeh haha...abeh comot bju...hehe

we got things packed at almost 8.00 in the morning and decided to find a place to bath..dah peluh2 sume...nex trip adalah waterfall kt ulu yam!! hehehe =) we go mandi2 and picnic there since we didnt have our breakfast yet. sgt bes!!!! yeah! ( nak pegiii lagiiiiiiii)..

so that was my weekends with him...lot more activities waiting for us =) .. we planning ( well my planning actually) to go for cycling at bukit cerakah soon...=)

i jus wanna shout ( I AM HAPPYYYYYYYY) yeahh !!! lari lompat2!

p/s i wish to have a skydiving soon!!!!! =)

i have to reach the star that i always wanted

THANK YOU....!!

" i want to have my master degree!!!!" shout out loud!

lately the word " QUIT" always appeared in my mind..too much and m tired. i cant go on anymore and with the result i got i cant even breathe! they keep pushing me towards wut should i achieve in my life. i noe they put their highest expectation on me. and m scared that i will dissapointed them in another way. i cant stop walking! no matter what. i must keep goin to the way tht i chose . to the lights and to where my foot gonna take me. tough m tired.thirsty or even broke......! i have to! i have no choice. im completely distress!

i work for my school tht make me think that m special as compared to others. no reason for me to quit as early as the beginning. Success is measure to how many times you fall. is not like you hv a good time for the entire life. yes! i found my tone! my colour! and i hold onto it and keep praying for streghtness fromAllah. May His blessing will be upon me always. InsyaAllah.

im sorry for my rudeness, for the slip of my tongue. and for everything. things turn to be blurred away.. and m sorry again =( my bad.

i cant quit now. help me to walk.guide me. and coach me. i cant make this happen w/out support from whom i love =(

A friend in need is a friend indeed

well...for the first entry i want you to define FRIEND! hmmm is easy to have friend.. u go to shopping mall say hye to anyone u like then u can make friend with him/her. simple as abc.. but to have real friend is much difficult.! am i right? or am i not?depends on how u define friend. for me friend is like ur own shadow.fren resembles you. like ur another hand. it give and it take. give and take.YES! is worth to have fren that always near when you are in need. FRIEND when u r in need is indeed a true fren. but ..unfortunately . in real life. is difficult to have a friend like that! seriously! though wutever you do to have such fren like wut u wanna have. u cant have them. u cant simply rely on ur fren whenever u need them. i experienced it many times. frens come and they go. they wont stay if i want them to stay. i give but i didnt receive wut i deserved. unfair! the very simple reason that they will tell u is the word BUSY! lame excuse. cant accept it.. me myself can escaped from the word busy. i have to work. i have to study. on weekend have to go to library find sources for my thesis... tell me do i hv time for myself? but still ALHAMDULLILLAH... i never disappoited my near yet bes fren. ask me go out. I WILL ..MY LEVEL BEST to say yes. so tell me! is busy is a good excuse to escape from ur fren????tell me!

i wrote something on my facebook last friday and it's sounds like "i can accept if u dont have time to hang out w ur fren or or time to go to kenduri or lepaking...but i cant accept if u dont hv time to reply ur fren's msg though ur facebook status is GREEN =) ur sorry doesnt mean anything =)" i feel dissapointed with one o my fren well many of my frens i can say. i try my best to keep our relationship work. frens forever. well i guess i cant control human behaviour. it is dynamic and dynamic behaviour cant be control. thts so tru. i got lots of comments when i posted some ' frustrated-statement' like tht. some said it is difficult to satisfy all people. YES it is. but we can somehow try to avoid it from happen. try to take care of LOVE that we have. try to take care of HEART of the people so that at the end we get want we supposed to get. Allah says in the Quran that we have to take care of the relationship between brothers and sisters. we are all brothers and sisters. IS IT DIFFICULT TO SAY HYE BACK IF UR SISTER SAY HYE TO YOU??? MY GOD i cant accept such a ridicilous excuses! feel frustrated! betrayed, useless ! all combined in....hmmm WHY? because i dont react like tht as i can remember.. at least i will say 'hello' back if i am soooooo busy then i will say i am busy now cant talk to you too long...tht's it! is it difficult? ok i wanna ask you DO YOU THINK SHE/HE WILL REACT THE SAME IF HER/HIS BF SMS/TEXT HER/HIM??? ( from the bottom of your heart) will she do the same???? MY SINCERE ANSWER i think she wont! but why you cant even reply ur fren's msg? why???

hmmmm.... tht is why i feel even more frustrated! i noe her since i was in a secondary school...it does matter for me. i dont noe wut you guys think. maybe m too sensitive. but it happened to me many times. hmmm...my heart broke entirely. and the word sorry break me even more =(

p/s i bet if u do the same thing to ur bf/gf ... ur relationship wont last forever..so do fren =) lucky i still have fren who understands me well. ukhwah fillah!!!