Dream~ as you can

Dream...define dream...!everyone has a dream...

got a conversation with him jus now...makes me ponder lots of things...marriage, career, to build a family, HUH M 25 ALREADY!.. the right time to think about all these things....marriage...am i ready? i swear after wut happened to me in couple years really make grow mature...LOVE does exists...to be LOVED is one thing...TO LOVE is another thing....n m in that phase NOW! to love n to be loved....that's means SACRIFICE is involved..my father said to me long time ago " if u wanna get married, make sure ur husband understands u well, BUT to make him understands u, u have to understand him first, IF SACRIFICE IS NEEDED, then u need to let go ur own...FOR THE SAKE OF HAPPINESS , REMEMBER! life is too short..world is just a stage for us...AND we r the actors"

WE ARE THE ACTORS . WORLD IS JUST A TEMPORARY TERMINALS. WE STOP THERE. FIND WUTEVER NECESSARY TO BRING BACK TO THE PERMANENT LIFE.

such things happen in between once u move to another stage of life...i saw my father, though he's not having any degree, master or even PhD but experiences taught him to be a man, wut can i say " a walking brain-life-machine"?he also said : "men will identify their self-esteem, their feelings of self-worth, their feelings of success, feeling of happiness, feeling of contentment on how financially successful they are" Is it true??? I DONT NOE...might be yes...money is the key word!

Allah created us with a purpose! must remember this ... i may not a good muslimah to say that, but i noe my limits....i noe my responsibility, i noe my duty, n i noe WHO I AM! thts is enough! TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED...is not tht easy....fall in love is easy...but to take care of such a gift is difficult....LOVE is a gift...WHY ALLAH SENT HIM TO ME? there must be a reason....MAYB THTS THE TEST FOR ME...or maybe HE'S THE ONE? WHO CAN TAKE MY HAND TO THE LIGHTS....only He knows....

sacrifice....(my father's fav song by elton john...heee) YES HE IS! he likes the song! ...i have had this conversation with my father long long time ago ( cant remember when) i asked him " wut if i get married n my husband is foreigner" my first question, he just said " tht's is ur choice how can i make decision for you if u're able to think of ur own! my second question " wut if I NEVER GET MARRIED? then he laughed at me saying tht is a stupid question i ever asked...( yelah i never had any bf since primary school until i got in uia ...2 pon in 2007..)PLUS my family sebelah mak sume kawen lambat! even my aunty ade je yg xkawen TP DUIT BERKEPUK! hehehehe....he said " kalo xkawen xkan ayah nk biaq" hmmm....

pas2....i started to ask more n more...as a man....he said " bukan isteri ja yg kena dijaga.....husband pon kena jaga...kena belai..kena sayang...hati kena jaga..ingat! kalo skang syurga bawah tapak kaki mak, nnt kawen bawah tapak kaki suami" TERPINTAS KT KEPALA ( CIAN JD POMPUAN...HEHEHE...FEMINISM betollll) byk lagiiiiii sebnarnya...as I SAID LAH MY FATHER NEH USTAZ KEJAP...ROCK KEJAP.SENGAL KEJAP..GILA MEROYAN KEJAP...

hmmm i noe m going to pass by this stage..WHERE I STARTED TO THINK ABOUT MARRIAGE! seriously last couple weeks...that thing happen to appear more often....i said to myself THIS IS THE TIME! to be serious...IN LOVE...TO BE LOVED N TO LOVE.....but is it true wut my father said to me....SACRIFICE NEEDED??

my mother asking me the same question also....but i dont have time to talk to her yet...about him.about me. wut m i going to do next.bla bla bla...BUT I SWEAR! THIS TIME IS SERIOUS! (penah ke ak xseryes??...) but m sure my mother xckp ape2...PLUS MY COUSIN IS GOING TO GET MARRY IN MAY huh lagilah soklan mcm2 ALA2 BILA NK KAWEN akan dipersoalkan hmmm....lumrah hidup lah 2! me? ready ke? I AM! but...i got to settle many things before going to the next stage which is MARRIAGE...tp...is he willingly waiting for me? that is depends on him to decide...i dont have right to make decision upon him....who am i to do tht kn?( am not a policy maker..hee) ...plus Allah knows wut is best for me....=)

well time will tell...nothing is certain in drawing our own future...but if SACRIFICE is needed in order to seek for happiness i would say " MY PLEASURE"...time is that matters...

i may not have experiences once talking about married life....but i got frens who get married..and sometimes they share their stories...i gain experiences from them....hmmm..(time will tell).. well wut i noe is that marriage is not jus like a contract...but more than that...is beyond that...is about building the nex generation...about to create new ummah....that is married....not to play play sepak2 masuk gol! NO! in Islam marriage is govern by mutual rights...the rights of the husband, the rights of the wife, the children... and within an atmosphere of LOVE and RESPECT!

as Allah said : "And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your hearts. Verily in that are signs for those who reflect." (Qur'an 30:21)

is not a big issue...simple...both parties must respect with each other...tht's all....so i can conclude here...if wife willingly sacrifice her own dream or her own desire for the sake of her family so do the husband! am i right?

back to mine : if he is the one Ya Allah show me the way...show me wut am i suppose to do...i need your guidance...

some might says is to early to think about tht but for me at the age of 25 u should have to think n to think n think. people asking here n there " when wil u get married" thts y i should think...huuuu

p/s i need a DOCTOR! ( i think now i hv my own doctor..hehe...even he is unofficially said that...but my heart says so....( mmg xmalu declare sendiri) hehehe)

p/s/s woman....though she is strong...she needs man by her side =) (suka words kt pic atas 2...common words...but ve a deep meaning)

Sean Beal - Cant Smile Without you

You know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh and I can't sing

I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

If you only knew what I'm goin' through

I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song

And brightened my day

Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?

Now it all seems light years away

And now you know

I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh and I can't sing

I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see, I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

If you only knew what I'm goin' through

I just can't smile without you

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find

Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me

And you see

I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh and I can't sing

I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad

I feel sad when you're sad

If you only knew what I'm goin' through

I just can't smile without you...

i smile from ear to ear when i first listen to this song =) thank you to him *yes you darling*

AND I CANT SMILE W/OUT YOU TOO

I WANNA GO to the ZOO!

huuu kecian kn? xpenah pegi zoo las pegi ms darjah 1 ( yeke?) hmm i wanna go! now! please take me there...=( y am i so interested to go? y?


haha...1st.. i wanna see, n touch the ZEBRA! seriously i admire kt zebra..since tgk cite madagascar! hahah...MARTY THE ZEBRA cute kn? kn?

marty the zebra..hee

tp xdelah semata-mata nk tgk zebra je....nk tgk animals lah..since kecik i mmg suka tgk cite binatang....my father suka binatang....unlike my mother...heheh...dia kucing pon xsuke...but since my father suke...xboleh la nk ckp pape kn?me? with cats ok lah tp i ve an allergic over cats...n species2 dgnnye...bc i have an athma...hmmm

tp serious....i like cats..jus xleh nk maen w them sgt....they re cute kn??...hee..ok ok why i like my house? eh eh ... why i like zoo??

cute kn? huuu....tgk tgn dia...huuu

so wut else? oh i wanna see snakes too...hahaha...gilorh kn? i do hate snakes...n binatang2 xberkaki....! GELIII YG AMAT..tp still nk tgk....heheh..but some snakes r beautiful some r geliiii! mcm coral snakes..they r preety much cute...w those colours...n ball snakes...they r cute too...I SWEAR I TOUCHED THEM ONCE! kinda manja cm2...they dont bite...n very sensitive..heheh...comel....

this is a coral snake i dont now whether u familiar with it or not...but kinda cute kn? i like those colours...preety!

and this is a ball-snakes....cute kn? mmg manje! they turn to be "like-a-ball" once we touch them...cuteeee =)

bukan sume snakes berbisa n danger...haaa! salah 2! hehe...tp still kita akan xsuke dia kn?hmmm normal lah ( geli tengkuk lah)

n n a girrafe too!!!....nak tgk jugak! byk lah!!!huuu..smpaikn termimpi2 nk tgk these animals...serious...ntahlah msa bdk2 dulu xsempat kot (ke...penakottttt??) heeee.....but i wish i can go there soon...PLUS +++ .....i wanna go with HIM! =) tp...bila ntah ada masa nk pegi...hmmm

i got one story...dlu mse kecik i suka ikan...hehe...n kebetulan my house near paddyfield...hmmm cantik pemandangan dia...wah wah...ari2 i akan g belakang rumah picnic...seriously...with my late grandmother n of cos lah if ada sawah padi ada ikan! hehehe...i am very much like a boy than a girl...nakal yg teramat! so satu hari i terasa nak sgt tangkap ikan...ikan laga ( in english is called betta fish) ....so addicted with this fish i dont noe why! they r cute ok! so i asked my frens, actually my counsin sarah and his bro puzi...hehehe....then three of us mulakan activity mencari ikan laga...! with pesauk of cos! ( u noe pensauk kn?)....n with bicycle

mcm ni lah rupa sawah padi...cantik n tenang =) n dlu slalu picnic kt cni with my late grandmother

cara2 nk tangkap ikan laga...if u can see the boy is holding wut i call pensauk...heee

this is how the betta fish look like

we start to find ikan laga near the paddyfield...huh! pecaya x...byk gileeeeeee ikan! naik syokkkk je tangkap ikan smp xsedar dah hampir malam...rupanya...

at home my mother start to worry about me...huhuhu..then my father cari us with his motorcycle..huuu....akhirnya! beliau menemui anaknya dgn ikan2 di tangan..huu 'BALEK"! nice n gentle suara dia ( still ingt lgi...huuu) pas2 i cycled back home...hmmm

kt umah! smp je umah! my father suruh i amek ikan2 2 tido ngan ikan2 2 w/out dinner (huh...nasib baek xkena rotan) tp...my father sangkut my bicycle kt atas bumbung rumah ( actually xdelah smp bumbung tp sbbkn i kecik tinggi lah nk amek basikal 2) hmmm so NO BICYCLE FOR 2 MONTHS! my counsins? bapak derang cool! hmmm...so esok sesapa yg ajak i naek basikal mmg kena jeling lah! i langutttt je tgk basikal atas bumbung...huuu...g mengaji pon jalan kaki je...=(

nakal ke? bru cket 2...huuuu

kaitan cite...2 lah 2 nk bgtaw i suke binatang..heeee..i suke jugak tankap rerama...mcm spongbob n patrick tangkap jellyfishh..haha...actually i tangkap butterfly or dragonfly 2 nk buat umpan for fishing...heheh

hmmm cite kecikk2 dulu


BUT...wish i can visit the ZOO one day ...i wishh i wishhhhh =)

love,

waniey =)

My Mother is My Life

sape xsyg mak? angkat kening! huuu syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu taw! huuuu.....i love my mother so so so n so much! cant live w/out her....tho i rarely seek her advice in certain matter particularly in how to manage life as compared to my father tht i often talk more w...but i can sense a love in her eyes....tp kalo pasal my love story ...hati ke hati...i prefer my mother...well sbb she is a woman like me..=) shes sensitive...VERY!...tp my father lgi sensitive...m lucky cos i have both of them..mmm...my mother is more to ' heart to heart' sharing moment n my father is more to ' life-is-all-about'...so i can say im sooo lucky kn?

my mother...cant describe hw she is in words....love doesnt need a reason..hee =) i jus wanna be the bes daughter that she always proud of...i am trying my level best to do that!

do love ur mother...mother day is everyday =)

Ya Allah, Hambamu Lemah!

Bismillahirahmaniraheem..

Setiap manusia yang Allah cipta sentiasa akan diberi musibah,ujian atau masalah hidup didunia yang sementara ini.Tipu jika seseorang itu berkata yang dia tidak pernah ditimpa musibah. Setiap orang ada masalahnya tersendiri,Allah uji dengan berbagai-bagai ujian tetapi sebabnya adalah sama. Allah menguji seseorang itu kerana Allah swt mempunyai rahsianya tersendiri,sama ada Allah hendak tambah iman kita atau hendak uji sejauh mana keimanan kita. Dan kerana sesuatu ujian itulah yang membuka mata hati kita,yang mendidik kita supaya jangan mudah putus asa dalam kehidupan yang bagaikan bahtera dilautan yang penuh dengan onak duri,ujian juga dapat mematangkan kita.

Kadang-kadang kita tertanya-tanya, mempersoalkan kepada Allah swt kenapa kita diberi ujian yang berat sebegitu sekali sehingga kita terlupa pada siapa yang perlu kita mengadu segala masalah kita, pada siapa kita harus minta kembali kekuatan kita. Astagfirullah, lemahnya dan rendahnya iman kita. Tidak redha dalam menghadapi ujian yang Allah beri terhadap kita. Jika kita anggap diri kita ditimpa musibah yang besar kita hendaklah ingat bukan kita sahaja yang mengalaminya,mungkin ada sahabat-sahabat kita @ saudara seakidah kita yang lain menghadapi musibah yang sama bahkan lebih teruk atau lebih besar dari kita.

Bukankah,Allah telah berkata dengan jelas di dalam Al-Quran yang Allah tidak akan sekali-kali menguji hambaNya diluar kemampuan hambaNya. Allah tahu kita kuat dalam menghadapi ujianNya jadi Allah berikan ujian itu ke atas diri kita. Di sini kita dapat lihat betapa sayang dan kasihnya Allah kepada kita sebagai hambaNya.

Allah menguji seseorang bukan kerana Allah benci kepada kita tetapi percayalah yang Allah sangat kasih kepada kita. Cuma kita sebagai hambaNya tidak pernah hendak bersabar dalam menghadapi ujianNya. Pasti Allah telah aturkan yang terbaik buat kita kerana setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya.

Alihkan pandangan matamu ke arah LAUT, airnya cantik membiru dan penuh dengan ketenangan. Tetapi hanya Allah sahaja yang mengetahui rahsia di dalamnya. Begitu juga dengan kehidupan manusia, riang dan ketawa tetapi hanya Allah yang mengetahui rahsia kehidupannya. Jika rasa kecewa, alihkan pandanganmu ke arah SUNGAI, airnya tetap mengalir biarpun berjuta batu yang menghalangnya. Dan jika rasa sedih,alihkan pandanganmu ke arah LANGIT, sedarlah dan sentiasa ingatlah bahawa Allah sentiasa bersamamu.

Jadi seharusnya apa yang perlu kita lakukan? berdoalah kepada Allah, Allah lah tempat kembali segala masalah yang sering membelenggu diri kita. Jangan malu untuk merayu-rayu, meminta-minta, memohon-mohon kepada Allah swt.Selalu diingatkan yang Allah tidak pernah jemu mendengar rintihan hambaNya, Allah itu Maha Mendengar.

Dekatkanlah diri kita dengan pencipta kita yang menguasai seluruh alam, yang memegang hati-hati kita. Disamping berdoa perlulah kita berusaha menyelesaikan masalah yang dihadapi. Mungkin ada yang rasa diri mereka tidak kuat hendak hadapinya tetapi cubalah bangun! Usah tewas dengan hasutan syaitan, cari kembali kekuatan kita kerana kekuatan itu ada dalam diri kita masing-masing.

Yakin dengan diri, kuatkan azam dan cita-cita. Usah tonjolkan kelemahan kita pada syaitan kerana syaitan tidak pernah berhenti menghasut agar kita lemah-selemahnya.
Jika rasa tidak kuat, carilah sahabat-sahabat yang sentiasa memberi kata-kata semangat kepada kita dan bukan sahabat yang menjatuhkan kita. Itulah pentingnya sahabat kerana kita tidak mungkin bisa hidup berseorangan.

Kita perlu tahu selepas ujian itu selesai, satu lagi ujian akan datang, maka bersedialah dalam menghadapi ujian yang seterusnya. Untung bagi mereka yang selalu diberi ujian tanda Allah swt sayang padanya. Semoga kita sentiasa menjadi hambaNya yang sentiasa redha atas ujian dan ketentuan Allah swt. Apa yang ditetapkan untuk kita itulah yang terbaik!

(Article diambil darr : iLuvislam.com)

p/S : sungguh...jika sesuatu musibah menimpa kita barulah Allah yg kita cri...tp jika tiada musibah? kita lupa siapa diri kita? xsedar yg kita hanya menumpang di dunia ini...Allahuakbar...sesungguhnya aku malu dengan diri sendiri! akhir2 neh...dugaan byk dalam hidup ini...nak diluahkan xtaw kepada sapa...lemah! itu je yg mampu keluar dr mulot ni...Allah tempat mengadu...tampat untuk mengumpul semula kekuatan...tp...diri ini malu...malu sebab musibah dtg baru nak mengadap Pencipta...merayu Pencipta...sedangkan selama gembira...aku lupa padaNya...Ya Allah...ujian apakah ini Ya Allah...sungguh berat untukku terima....! jika itu Rahsia-Mu....Ya Allah...ak redha...=)

YA ALLAH

YA ALLAH ujian apakah yang KAU berikan kepadaku?
sungguh sukar untu aku lalui
KIFARAH DOSA?
sesungguhnya AKU HAMBA YG HINA

My Wedding Dream~

i believe everyone has their own wedding dream...so do i! ever since i was a kid..i always wanted to have an awesome fairytale wedding....have a beautiful wedding dress, walking on the rose petals and dancing with my husband (my prince charming)...WOW....a very 'cinderella' fairytale story kn?wut can i say? a "malay cinderella wedding day"?ehehe...owh tht is not to include a horse drawn carriage to deliver the bride to her groom..hehe...too much storybooks lah! but who knows it might happen in my life soon? who knows?? ( sambil mengangkat kedua bahu) hee kn?kn? hmmm tht's the dream of every girl i guess...betol x?but i like to have lots of roses in my wedding day..like roses very much!


my wedding theme would be " A GARDEN WEDDING" as i said i like roses much .. my wedding should be lots of roses...i wanna make it real simple..i mean ...my wedding....is only for my close friends and family thts all..not too demand kn? hehehe....many people especially malays like to remain the old tradition with a malay wedding dress...buat kenduri besar2....but for me...is not wrong kn to hv another thing tht might be out of the circle....! huh! kenduri pon xpayah besar2 sgt....cos is membazir je....jus make it nice and simple and buat yang wajib je...heee...kn? betol x?


so, the theme is a "garden wedding"...thts wut i always wanted to have! ngee...simple je mcm cite omputeh 2...just simple ..

mcm ni ke? heee cantik kn? tp pink sgt lah!

look nice with roses all over...VENUE??hmmm 2 lah belom fikir lg kat mn kt malaysia neh seswai...but saw one of my frens wedding, a chinese, she just having a wed ...and a garden wedding was her choice too...cantik tmpt 2...cant upload pic here....soon ok....tp m 100% sure tht was in malaysia! so i still hv a chance lah kn to have a wedding like this??? =)

for GUEST i wanna make it nice as well....dah berngan2 dah...special decoration for my frens n family members...hehe....

this is for my guest! cantik x? hehe

and and! i berangan jugak every each of my guest will has a cute roses cupcake..heheh mcm ni!

cute kn?? heee..ok ok seryes i nk blaja buat cupcake mcm ni!

hmmm wut else eh? owh owh my WEDDING CAKE! my wedding cake of cos lah kene ade roses jugak! suka kn roses..heee....simple je my wedding cake...xnak sarat2! one layer is enough...hmmm

heee....suke neh...tp if xdpt kek mcm ni is ok..one layer is enough! simple..

then come my WEDDING GOWN! muslimah wedding gown lah...due to m wearing hijab...hehe...who said wearing hijab xcantik in wedding?? xlah...is not something yg old fashioned or obsolute! kn be awesome ape! i just google nk tgk wedding dress yg muslimah pakai...then i found this...kinda like it! hehehe

nice kn yg ni?? haha ntah nmpak cool!

yg neh plak mcm serabut...tp ok lah....

but i like yg elyana style msa kawen dia 2...blue in color...cantik...pink sgt xcantik...peach cantik! suke!!!

hmmm then kalo kawen mst kene pk pelamin plak kan? for PELAMIN yg mcm ala2 garden wedding sama gak...nak roses jugak...heheh mcm ni ok? I LIKE je..pelamin 2 must ikot theme...since my theme is a garden wedding...haha...( cian my husband kn suma pink) haha...jus mcm neh lah...not necessarily pink...blue or white pon ok! hmm

nice kn? bunga bulat2 2 i like...hehehe cantikkkkkk!!!!

for my MAKE UP! huh i like to be simple as much as i can! xnak make up tebal! yg neh i like Datin nor juma pnye make up n style! kalo boleh nk mcm 2 jugak! haha

simple je kn? (tp bole ke jd camni cantik??) heee

and...my wedding i nak ada FLOWER GIRL jugak!! hehehe






hmmm.2 je lah...my dream wedding...(kata pon suka berengan kn?) hehehe...but berangan xsalah kn...?I WISH I WISH I WISH to have a wedding day just LIKE THIS! hehe..insyaAllah...BERUSAHA.!


love,

waniey