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Now listen : Opick , rapuh =)

Salam all.

i had a very difficult week. last two weeks, before a major terrible things happen, i always feel difficult to breathe. or what so called "semput". i have history of asthma previously, last attack was at the age of 14. and i havent had asthma since then. m worried tht i got it back. i went to see a doctor and he jus gave me an inhaler to help me breathe. and say nothing about my condition. little did i know, i am in no condition of getting asthma as what i experienced last 11 years ago. this time is diffrent. i feel like there was not enough oxygen for me to breathe or in other words, shortness of breathe. it happened when im in stress. then doc said i got hyperventilation syndrome. strange. but true. like i said. now i have to ease mind everytime i feel sad. no more tears. or else i get myself into trouble. ohhhh

and sad truth is my car get flooded couple weeks ago. T_T .... if u watch news, flood occured at jalan Tun Razak. i park my car there accidently. Alhamdullillah, the flood didn effect the engine. but still i have to pay the damage and repaired cost. hmmm...now everything is settled. Alhamdullilah. so lesson learned. beringatlah! sediakan payung sebelum hujan. and i believed, ada hikmah disebaliknya......=) Allah sedang menguji.

and....heart matters.i feel doubt............

DOT.

..but but I AM A NERD!....

HEY I M A NERD! SCREAM FOR THE DORK! AND BE PROUD OF THE GEEK!!!

Nerd : Nerd is a term that refers to an intelligent but single-minded person obsessed with a nonsocial hobby or pursuit ( Wikipedia ).

Dork : american pejorative slang for a quirky, silly and/or stupid, socially inept person, or one who is out of touch with contemporary trends. Often confused with nerd and geek, but does not imply the same level of intelligence.( Wikipedia ).

Geek : a general pejorative meaning of "a peculiar or otherwise dislikable person, esp[ecially] one who is perceived to be overly intellectual". (Wikipedia)

ok. frankly speaking i have 11 summons from PDRM! and 4 summons from IIUM!so i am what? so the term nerd will replace to what?i went to settle my summons just now then the police officer said this to me " selalu pompuan ni ikut peraturan, ni ape kes ni cik hazwani? ". sentap mak! ishk!

hey m not like that k. i jus wondering why i am been summoned to court for traffic obstruction. ohh Allah, what have i done? the case is still running, but the police said it was just a summon for obstruction of traffic signs. nothing to do with court. but then i told them i am not been issued with letter or something that make me aware that ive been summoned. and he said maybe the letter was put on the car's wiper, probability to lose it was 100%. GREAT! i like the answer! (then i can win this case rite? exception form the payment??) ..... see m a nerd by the way!

i am a nerd
i only like to read books
i love animals
i love my boyfriend! (eh termasuk ke hehehe)

so what are u going to label me now? a law breaker? or a heart breaker? owh by the way i want to congratulate PDRM or Royal Malaysian Police for a dedication and perseverance to work! well done! summons increase so tht people are aware of rules and regulations! =) *clapping*

and to IIUM traffic officers...congratulations! we can count on you all. guys can easily enter female's entrance ( boyfriend and girlfren caught dating) . that's why the officers firmly summons all students with no sticker like me! aha! well tht's great. another improvement ! well done IIUM!

and and mahallah fellows! congratulations to all of u! well done!

YEAH I AM A NERD!!

.......under the sun, i laid down and dreamt

hye everyone =)

happy sunday! tomorrow new day will start and again we are bound with time and commitments.life must go on isnt it? what ,why and how begin to raise when we explores new things. so dont ever give up when there is no light at the end of the tunnel. keep going and u'll find it sooner or later.

different people have different thinking. am i right? sometimes ideas clash between another. some said you have to do it. some puts certain barriers not to do it. wherever you go ull find people talking hot issues. like for example. the price goes up, subsidies, bad and good goverment, elections and many other issues. sometimes 10 years issues brought back to main discussion. same as family issues, some family members tend to talk 10 years issues that never resolved. and some try to regulate family affairs like he/she wishes to do. happen also uncles and aunties try to control our life and it happen also in my family whether realize it or not..

we cant fulfill people's wishes. what they expecting from us. what they wanted us to be. we are what we are. me for example. i cant always be people's favourite. sometime i also make mistakes.but somehow people dont understand. and sometimes that happen to be among your family also. i have a dream. and i want to achieve it in whatever circumstances. i believed that everyone has a dream too. for me, what matters is the way life is managed. if u sail to find an island for your own good, u ' ll have to sacrifice everything that u may have and achieved throughout life..you have to let go in order to find your dream. kingdom rose when man try to discover new places. and claim it as it territories. so as the nation claimed over sovereignty of the state. in meantime, they have to sacrifice evrything and left everything behind so that at the end , prosperious life appeared to be at the end of the journey. a dream promises.

dream defines you sometimes. if u dream and try to achieve it then it will find you at the end and u will be able to define yourself. what are you. and ur objective and purpose of life. we have life to pursue. in Islam as Allah created men and jins to worship Him. we know exactly our purpose of life. worship here is widespread.to be the chosen one. we are the khalifah of Allah. our duties not only to ourself but also to our fellow. and it is in general the worship towards what is obliged to us. in simple words, it comprises all notion of life.

dont stop dreaming and try to achieve it! and always pray to Allah . insyaAllah. your dream will come true =)

love,

Waniey.

BUSY like A BEE

Assalmualaikum =)

it has been quite a long time i didnt update my blog. m too busy lately. seriously. have to work from 7.30am until 7.30pm if have no class. then get back from work and doing some writing and reading. sometimes until 2.00am. get some sleep 2-3 hours. tht's my routine. if have class then i have to prepare for class . at night do the same thing again. m working so hard for my thesis now. m running out of time. hope everything is running smoothly. sometimes i feel like m the only person on earth that have a tight schedule. aha! but m so wrong. looking at my other classmate, some even have a family. a career. but still, they manage to maintain good attitude to achieve what they dreamed. so, busy is lame excuse! and i start to learn how things moving around me and how to control it. sometimes i feel so depress. but that is a normal feeling. and u would feel the same if u having a bunch of work to do and at the same time u hv another thing to focus on. luckily i hv people who always be with me. and support me whenever i need. these people wherther realize or not, give me strengh to move on. =)

i noticed something unfamiliar about me lately. i tend to forget things easily. small small thing. huu. sometimes i forget where i put my keys. where i hang my clothes and always left my handphone behind..something going on in my head. like millions butterflies in the head ( often. they use butteflies in stomach kn?) hehe. what's tht supposed to mean? hmmm . to avoid such thing from happen again and again. i jotted down every details what should i do and what will i do as well as things that should not be forgotten.i found it easier to remember things. i think the reason why i always forget is because of my habit. i did not focus! not paying attention to single thing tht i plan to do. endah x endah je. at the end i gain nothing but trouble. hmm thts what i can summarize all the discussion about 'forget me not' heheh =)

like others , i also wanted to do the best for people i loved. to make them proud. and m in the phase of doing it. and i really struggle to do that! hope Allah will make my path easy. insyaAllah.

i always remind myself that success is not only written in the certificate or master or degree that you have obtained. but also measure by what you have achieve throughout acquiring the knowledge. and my father always remind me the same too. "always listen when they speak their mind, their words is also a knowledge" will remember that!

bafore i stop writing i have words to share with :-

".........stop being so nice to people. they'll forget someday. sometimes being a lil bit bastard can put u in power. that's life."

heee...think about it...( really influenced by machiavelli when saying this)

love,

waniey.

what's new on list??

what's number one? i put there ' TO GET MY THESIS DONE' .. uhuu in stress lately with many things to handle with only two hands and one brain...i wonder how my parents did all these to raise me and my siblings? how they sacrifice their own interest letting us get what we want ...even, they are willingly to give part of the world to us..i burst to tears T_T

i said to my father that i am much concern with my own future though i study n work at the same time, people see that i achieve nothing. luckily i have my parents behind me, LOVE THEM MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF! i dont know what people think. little mind said that i just wasted my two years time once after i quit my 'very-stable-job- as they claimed. but i believed that it is not them tht give me rizki it is , Allah. so i shit them not for saying that to me. but i just disappointed with the way they see things.

what matters to me now is how im seeking myself and how i achieve my dream. i wont let myself grounded by 'little minds' that whispered to me to let my dream go....so the first on my list is to get my master!!

whats number two? number two! I NAK KAWEN!thts number two....



love,

waniey.

first love

do you believe in first love?

people say that first love is hard to forget..is that true? for me, i believe that past love taught me to love better. many cases , especially married couples divorced because of the power of the first love, question arise, what on earth are they living in? be realistic, and i think person who cant simply forget their first love is the person who has no tendency to success in this world. why look at the back? move on....Love is a gift from Allah and the word FIRST LOVE never exist if we love because of Allah, i am of opinion. people come and they go, that is normal, we cant smell when is our death, it is maktub...wherever we go we belong to the Creator, so why concern with the first love? and break the relationship in order to find a true love, which is first love? i dont understand...yes, i am realistic! i believe that if i cant own something, it is because that thing is not belong to me. if Allah wants me to own it, then it will be mine.

i have a conversation with a single mother who just has been divorced, and she said that her ex-husband is going to marry his first love. i cant believe this kind of joke tht her husband is making. if u still over ur ' fisrt love ' why marry someone else? is that because u need someone to amend the pieces of your broken heart that your first love has left for u? thts is so unfair! and ridiculous. but that is reality! wherever you go you ll find this type of person. to some extend, i wondering, love that he built is just a fake! so how can we know that love is a true love? love has no smell, no taste, thus we cant sense whether that love is true or not. that is what i always afraid of..............

what if you get married and your husband is not entirely happy? and always thought about his first love?.............

what if after you have a children then your husband leaves you?...and that because of his first love....

what happen if love that your husband gives to you, is just a shadow of his first love?....

above all, first love is nothing but a little foolishness.

DOT.


love,

waniey

p/s i am now reading a romantic story about prophet Muhammad (PBUH) and Aa'isyah (ra) , our ultimate example.....

Part of me that you may not know...taaaraaaa ruummm pum!!!!

hye everyone! gud afternoon. =) thank you for reading my blog ( if u read lah..accidentally read or intentionally read or wutever reason it is....) thank you! =) . today is saturday and the weather is not soo good .. raining. ( love it!) .. locked myself in my room as usual. no reading. but sleep all day O_0 .. funny thing is i thought today is monday ... LOL my brain is unable to regenerate the fact that today is holiday. LOL...today's entry is about ME..i want to tell you about me 13 years back then. if rasa boring sila xpayah baca. thank you =)

What i like when i am 12 years old.

as a senior in school you might want yourself to be popular. betol x? me? nahhh.. i like to be in my own world. my frens are among boys. and all of them are from second and third class.. logically, if you are from the first class you may not want to make fren with people from 3rd or 4th class kn? betol x? me different. i like to make fren with them. sbb 2 nakal sama..why? because all of them dr kampung aku...mmg lah aku kwn dengan depa! ishk..so masa standard 6 the most popular game is ' permainan lawan2 pemadam' LOL..suka gila men pemadam ni...the rule of game is easy. u tekan2 pemadam tuh . the eraser will bounce and hits the other eraser of your fren. that means you win! LOL..once win. the eraser is yours! disebabkan aku tak bole menerima kekalahan. i won everytime! and bring back all the erasers home. at home my mother tny..." awat byk sgt pemadam nih?" dok amik pemadam kwn ka kt sekolah" sok p bgi balik" aku jawab " dak aih mak, ni mng game" smbil buat bodoh malas nk layan soklan2 len n cepat2 siap p mengaji Quran...ada ja aku nk jawab bila parents ak tny....mak aku cm2 lah....dia tny skali ja. kalo aku jawab cm malas2 dia xtny dah. nak tau pasaipa? sbb aku kira bdk pandai jugak la kt sekolah n xpenah buat hal... 2 pasai dia xtny sgt...(padahal.....)

ada jual lgi ke pemadam negeri2 ni? nk beli la..hehe

I like comics and benda2 ganas..

i like comics. especially anak-anak sidek n mangga komik. hehehe ( marah aku kalo komik aku ilang). lepas 2 time ni suka beli tora and ding dang pas2 kopok ali baba yg beli pas2 dpt hadiah kt dalam 2..LOL.. slalu ak buli adek aku yg bawah aku. if am12 yrs old he just 7 yrs old..aku akan suruh dia buat mcm2..(kejam x aku?) ...my lil bro has a hobby. he likes to play a gun...pistol cicak yg pasang peluru kaler kuning mcm manik2 ( haih aku nk explain pon xtaw cane) ... kalo tembak cicak , cicak 2 mati tergolek....bayangkan kalo tembak ko? sakit ke x??kalo gugurl like to play masak2 aku suka men pistol cicak tuh...pas2 nk taw aku suka tembak ape? tembak kucing bapak aku!!! aku ulang skali lgi....tembak kucing bapak ak..(jahat kn?)( ganas??...ganas ke kalo nmpak cacing ke ulat bulu ke aku lari mcm xcukup bumi??) kalo nek beskal mmg nak race je keje..xcaya tny bapak aku..brapa kali dia detained me from not having dinner bcause of stupid racing..but after that, i start to change... becoming more and more nerd ( nerd ke??)..nerd 2 maksud aku suka study je....i have fren who always do maths...ari2 dia buat exercise maths... kalo aku nmpak dia aku nampak number...bayangkan...tp aku kawan jugak ngn dia...why?because she likes maths and i hate maths...ko nmpak x sbb aku suka kawan ngn dia? and she is my neighbour =)

13- 15 years old

at this age..i start to read books n novels. novel cinta gitu..novel tuh beli ke? tak lah pinjam je...huhuuhu. and my uncle has lots of books. and because of he likes politics and i always go near his study room. i start to read books about politics..ha jgn xtaw! i read harakah. i read times magazines. i read risalah. i read books about mahathir. about anwar. about conflicts in politics (mse tuh time kes anwar). about reformasi izzah.about pas. and lot more! xpayah tekejut...! dah dia punya study room kt sebelah ruang tamu mmg lah aku slalu pegi c2...menarik dah mcm library. =) if we balik kg...time org busy kt dapur. aku busy baca buku2 pak long aku. time cuti pak long aku pegi sekolah. dia keje. so mmg line clear lah. =) aku baca koleksi kisah-kisah teladan pasal nabi muhammad yg pak long aku nye smpai habeh. i learn about politics because of his books...!!i dont have my own money to buy books myself. my pocket money i use to buy PMR nye buku2 rujukan. yg 2 kalo mintak duit kat mak aku..mak aku sng je bg...hmmm...and duit pocket ill make sure ill save it about around rm 12. nak taw sbb apa? sebab majalah ujang rm 4.00 pas2 komik mangga rm 7.30....mmg lah dok simpan duit nk beli natang tuh! LOL..i am good in writing.. i always get A in my essay. both English and Bahasa Melayu...mcm aku ckp...i hate maths. but got fren who likes maths..so we change expertise. she teaches me maths and i teach her history, and how to write a better essay. =)

16-17 years old.

time nih aku rajen study. so xde aktiviti best sgt pon. nerd mmg cm2..balik sekolah g tuisyen. pas tuisyen balik tgk cita korea..hahaha!...jgn xtaw i like nsync. hehe. i like justin timberlake yoo!lepas SPM aku msuk matrik uia...teros berubah jdi baik! ( maksud aku....aku jmpa kawan2 yg suma tudung labuh smp ke lutut yang solehah yang selalu bagi nasihat dan tarbiyah....and aku RASA SELESA SGT2 KAWAN DENGAN DEPA) =) Alhamdullillah...Allah mmg nk aku jdi baik...ameen...

so that was me back years then.. until now i like to read ujang tuh! las time msa balik kedah i bought myself majalah tuh. then smpai umah my mother ckp " ingat umoq 25 taun majalah cani xbaca la smbil dok gelak2...pas2 p cghita kt ayah aku... lawak ke? ceh!




ok kot ckit2 pasal myself. panjng2 satg melalot plak...

love,

waniey

Easier said than done

Lately marriage seems to be the main discussion. and people around me keep talking the same too. i asked several married couples with regard to this matter , how s life gonna be after married and other problem that may arise in the marital relationship. discussion passed by and i acquired a lot. so i can conclude here, do concern with the financial stability due to the fact that it would become the main problem short after the marriage. other reason is tht not to simply rely on the myth of ' happily-ever-after' marriage as a result of ' love-you-forever' , in fact, analyze other factors that may become issues between you and your spouse.

i keep posting on my wall about marriage doesnt mean that i wanted to boast like ' I WANT TO GET MARRIED' or ' I ALREADY HAVE A BOYFRIEND' or anything else tht would appear in ur LITTLE MIND. NO! that was not my main purpose of doing that. i just need a GREAT MIND to capture my intention and give me advice that i might need in future. that's it!and Alhamdullilah i got positive comments among my friends. and thank you very much to them!

now i want to analyze their comments as it could help me to be more realistic in defining what marriage is all about. some said that the money is the only reason for me not to get married. alright let me briefly say something about me.

i am 25 years old. graduated in April 2009. After graduated , i hve work for 6 months with Jabatan Bekalan Air Negeri Kedah. i quit my job because i want to get a master degree. i am very ambitious and believe that education promise you a better life as well as good ummah. (Islam also encourage us to acquire knowledge too) . now i am study , struggling to get my master degree , and in a meantime i am working with Celcom. i pay for my school. i am a full time student and i work as a full time employee just like anyone else. And i am very independent and not my mummy's little baby. so, now i can adjudge that my financial is not that really good to get married. am i right? so the money as the main reason is acceptable in my case. As far as the marriage is concern is the ability to support the family. as it is important to ensure the family welfare. so can we simply claim that money is a lame excused not to get married?

BUT (see there is a but there, not butt eh) SOMEHOW, i keep pondering, wondering and many 'ing' lagi ...such excuses are not gonna break a tie that we r going to build for the sake of Allah..i believe tht! and i will always believe that! if money is the main problem, i can say that Allah wants me to put more effort on how to overcome the problem. and if i failed to do so, means that i failed the test that Allah has planned for me.

You shall encourage those of you who are single to get married. They may marry the righteous among your male and female servants, if they are poor. GOD will enrich them from His grace. GOD is Bounteous, Knower. (24:32)

In this ayah , we can see that Islam encourages marriage in order to discourage immorality. Islam considered marriage as essential and vital part of Muslim's life. as it can prevent man and woman to commit adultery and the downfall of the ummah. look at the last ayah " if they are poor, God will enrich them with His grace". And Allah continued says :

Those who cannot afford to get married shall maintain morality until GOD provides for them from His grace. (24:33).

As i said earlier, Allah will help us if our intention is good. and i believe tht Allah will help me as long as my intention is for the sake of ibadah. my friend also advice me this. and i noe that there will be wisdom behind it. so, i cant say or simply put several obstacles that hinder me from marry someone i love. and i truly believe that Allah will show me the way as long as i hold on to the faith. IF YOU CANT TRUST OTHERS! TRUST ALLAH, THE ONLY CREATOR! insyaAllah, He will help us.

INSYAALLAH.

so how people? is it easier said than done? make a hundred list what to do or not to do, what are the thing that might be a probability in the future do not help me much. due to it is not happen in my face. so, as i analyze all the comments. i still found tht there is no end to my case. hmmmm

ALLAH KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR ME.

love,

Waniey

apabila hati runsing dan mulut mahu berkata-kata

.....dan pabila bulan itu mengambang. maka teranglah segala isi bumi. teeetttttttttt... i nak cite ni. time pegi exam ptd ari 2... bukan nk belagak smbong mahupon belagak konon2 ' i sound silly when i speak in malay' tp sumpah saya mcam xreti buat karangan bahasa melayu. sehinggakan ayat2 smbung pon saya lupa. makanya, ayat2 yg selalu saya ulang adalah. kemudian, kemudian itu, kemudian lagi. begitulah teruknya anak melayu apabila sudah lupa asal usul sendiri. benar kata che det. melayu mudah lupa. kata hang tuah plak. takkan melayu ilang didunia. hang tuah salah! melayu dah pon ilang di dunia. tinggal melayu lalang lali taik ayam saje yg masih kekal...(ohh sorry..saya org melayu) hmmmm.. tidakkah begitu bagai dikata? bukankah benar apa yg deperdngarkan? wahai manusia yang bernama melayu. bangkitlah bangsamu dengan megah! bukan lalang mahupun 'katak dibawah tempurung' oppps ( no political discussion....teeetttt).

so tulah nk ckp 2. ada plak org melayu yg mmg jenisnya bila kita speaking ckp kita belagak ...aduh..apakah yg tekandung dalam enakmen otak-otak mereka? melayu2..melayu lagi..haaa time plak ckap kita merosakkan bahasa bila cakap campur-campur. MANGLISH. eh eh salah ke i nk ckp manglish pon? contoh maglish yg i ckp dan menerima kritikan hebat mereka-mereka ini " i want to berjalan at the park" or i want to makan roti canai with the pulled tea. hah! itu pon mereka mau kritik. katernyer baik rosakan satu bahasa je. hah mcm 2 yer. ok lah tuh...mcm2 lah orang melayu ni. dengki memang takkan abih. alik2 bangsa lain pijak kepala dia. dia kata xpa! orang kencing dia. dia kata xpa. last2 dia jual tanah kt orang, apakah? cuba pikir dgn otak bukan lutut.

culture plak. bila masuk tang culture adat melayu mmg sungguh dijaga bagai nak rak ( apelah aku mengarut ni) ...perempuan mmg WAJIB masak n buat kerja2 dapur. nnt suami kawin lagi satu. tak pun perempuan mesti kena memasak, megemas, mengemop, membasuh, mencuci dan ber mcm2 mem lagi. soklan yang patut ditny adakah dalam islam perempuan yang WAJIB buat keje2 ni????because of the taboo then we , women have to bear all these responsibilities that supposed to be done by men. i say this due to what i know. if you have an argument. make an appointment with me . =)betol ke tak?

itu baru tang culture. tang pembawa mulut pendengki pekhianat? apa plak ceritanya. Malays if they are divided they remain divided, i couldnt agree more! if u work with other bangsa la kn. u hardly find them bad mouthing to each other as compared to Malays. Mengumpat sana sini.dengki mendengki. haaahhh i can say what, if soon, these minorities will take over Malaysia. why? because of the sentiments that they have are stronger than us. as i make myself clear, Malays when they are divided they remain divided!

so fikir2kn lah wahai bangsaku yang otak nya masih dikepala. ( sorry for the 'shitting' words). nowadays aa i talking to you. Malaysian are more obsessed with own culture. political parties now based on ethnic group, that is what had happened in 2008 election, hindraf arise. chinese feel marginalized , what else, indian feel that they are not given the privileges that have been given to Malays. then chaos created, they rebelled and now what happen? you can see kn? kn? 2008 almost the same with 1969 racial riots. now that happened again, who knows this coming election. see what i mean? come on la Melayu! bangunlah bersatu... bukan tunjuk dengan jari telunjuk sapa salah sapa benar, today aaa politicians are big liars. we as a citizen do not know who to believe, and the lalangs follow je mcm hidung lembu kene tarik. see.....people people . we are masters , come on we elected them . we are the people!

haaa bilahati runsing mulut mau berkata-kata mcm ni lah jdinye...bebel

so, jom fikir.

am now reading : Islamic jurisprudence . saja nk nengok hak-hak wanita dalam Islam.

ok ,

love,

waniey

BEAUTIFUL WORDS MADE FOR ME

Terasa sunyi bila kau tiada disisi

aku kesepian sendiri keseorangan

muncul wajahmu dimataku

jelas ternyata yang aku rindu

detik2 bersamamu sentiasa bermain di ingatan

gurau senda, hilai tawa, usikan manja dan belaian mesra

jelas ternyata yang aku rindu

jika kau disisi

akan ku sampaikan bisik hati

ingin aku lepaskan rindu jiwa ini

takkan ku lepaskan kau pergi

tinggalkan aku kesunyian lagi

bagiku kaulah segalanya

perawat luka penyembuh derita

kau yang ku damba dan impi

wahai pemaisuri hati

bersabarlah menempuh segalanya

jika kau merintih

aku menangis

jika kau gembira

aku bahagia

kekallah bersamaku

kerna aku ingin selamanya bersama denganmu

hingga akhir waktu.....

i burst into tears after read it. till now, i feel so touched..n moved to tears. thank you MUHAMMAD FAIZ! thank you so much. thank you for everything. thank you for giving me strength through many obstacles in my path...thank you for keeping me resolute when all around seemed lost . with my whole heart, i love you!

Sunny Sunday with the lazy bumps

today is sunday. i am at my room. my comfy room. hehehe. i dont have any plan for today. as usual reading a book. just start reading ' by the river piedra i sat down and wept' by my favorite author, paulo coelho =). and having a hot nescafe.ngeee. so that what i am doing every weekend if i dont have anywhere to go.

i want to talk about hobby and interest.someone asking me about my interests (my boyfriend that asked me), put it as the main concern, as a woman, he assumes that i like to go for shopping to satisfy the needs. the desire. haha. well i love shopping and would always love it! but not that really choosy. i mean, people always concern about what they wear, concern with the absence of the brand names when they buy things, unlike me, i dont even care whatever brand it is. as long as it fits me well ill buy it. Guess, Gucci, whatever names it is. i dont really care.. i go for shopping if i think i need to go and buy something. and i like to do it alone or with someone who having the same taste as me...so i am normal kn? ( people always talking tht i am a bit weird) who cares! haha.

i have friends among the so called ' alim-alim'..hee . why? because i think they are really good. they would always give me a good advice when i need it. be with me. console me whenever i feel bad. and most importantly, they bring me back to my real existent. to my Creator. so do u think that they like to shop a branded name? they live in a really moderate life as required. so i am most attach to their lifestyle. as i think is good. kn?kn? so that is reason number one.

reason number two. i love books n i would spend hundreds for books. due to i think i dont waste any money buying books as compared to a branded clothes that i think is unnecessary for me to buy...so now you know where my money goes? ngee

i hate make up.and my money save for that.

i have a weird bahaviour as i like to shop shoes. i like shoes. and i dont have reason why i like it. i gave most of my unwanted shoes to my cousins because my sister unfits my size and i dont have any other sister..( adik pon ada dua je.hueh). i am now trying to control such a creepy habit. haha.
....and i dont like places where there are a lot of people .. i am most liking a place with peace and calm instead. now you know who i am. a weird creature. LOL. to the boyfie, yes i am nerd but i am sexy. LOLLLs

i like politics. but hate scandals involve in political arena. since i study politics, so i love to talk and have arguments regarding the issues arise in politics. and i have a number of friend that like the same too. so we share the same interests. but doesnt mean tht i hate to gossip anything else. ( pompuan kn suka buat ketupat.) i got to admit that. i love gossip..

football. YES i loved it! RUGBY?. i feel hard to understand the rule of game. so right now, no interest...

your interest defines you well. am i right? so if i like books, then how u define me?i think i noe ur answer. haha

so that's it! heee.

love,

waniey.

p/s : i love to eat too..in case u dont know.LOL

obsessive compulsive disorder

i heard about OCD once after watch a movie (cant remember which movie) . the movie is about a woman who suffered from an obsessive compulsive disorder. she has kids and always concerns with germs. she would clean her house until she satisfies and she keeps repeating over and over again. now my turn to ask..do i hv OCD?

i think m not tht serious. mayb a mild of OCD. my routine as usual. ill check the main door is locked before going to sleep. ill check it at least 4 times. when i am certain that it is locked then ill go to sleep. before sleep.ill make sure there are nothing uncommon under my pillow.same as it is. then i go to sleep with a rested mind. if i am at home. similar thing i would do. after switch off the tv. i will unplug anything tht i think might cause fire to start. this happen one day when i switched off the main power. everything in the fridge cant be use anymore ( so clever!!) . i will ensure my car locked though i press the remote to lock it. ill check it until i am sure tht it is locked. see!!!

if i wash clothes ill make sure that white clothes are separated, or i will wash it myself without using washing machine until i satisfied. white clothes only. see (again).

dont ask me to take care of ur belongings. i will obsessively care for it. this is due to the fact of an unfounded fears tht people might think towards me that i am failed to do the task.

so. am i considered one of the people who suffer from OCD??? can anyone answer me?? huu...any doctor here? huhu

Travis - Turn

I want to see what people saw

I want to feel like I felt before

I want to see the kingdom come

I want to feel forever young

I want to sing

To sing my song

I want to live in a world where I belong

I want to live

I will survive

And I believe that it won't be very long

If we turn, turn, turn, turn, turn

Then we might learn

So where's the stars ?

Up in the sky

And what's the moon ?

A big balloon

We'll never know unless we grow

There's so much world outside the door

I want to sing

To sing my song

I want to live in a world where I'll be strong

I want to live

I will survive

And I believe that it won't be very long

If we turn, turn, turn, turn

And if we turn, turn, turn, turn

Then we might learn

learn to turn

p/s my fav too. i love this song. it is about dream. to achieve our dream we must be brave. to turn our dream into reality. life is about challenges. maybe uplifting. turning dream into reality. whenever i listen to this song i feel motivated. love travis!

life would be meaningful if we know which sauces to be added

i dont hv any plan for today. going back from work. as usual. ill read some book before going to sleep.i jus jotted down some tasks on the note book. list down the pros and cons ,everything that i need to do this week. things to do things to buy. and the first thing that i wanted to do is to get a book written by Alexandra Potter, calling romeo. sounds interesting to read on weekends =) so it might be not having a-so-really-boring weekend. since i dont have any plan yet , i decided to stay at my room.locked. =)

things number two : i want to have a crystal-table-lamp that i saw at one supermarket on the other day!anyhoo, planning to have it soonest possible. the price? forget about the pricetag! money cant buy happiness..haha. why do i need those crystal lamp by the way? well, it is believe that the crystal lamp enable us to study more often!! hahah (eh suka hati lah)...romantic mood sumore. =).

things number three: wash my car!for whatever reason i have to wash it! covered with dirt already.haiyaa ^_^

things number four: study for ptd's failure club ( huahuahua) study aje lah!!worth every cent =)

things number five : buy toiletries.

things number six : keep my money save .. lalalalal

and that are the lists tht i have done for me so far =) hope it'd me meaningful as long as it is put to the right place =)

love,

waniey

when the rain begins to fall I'll be the sunshine in your life~

Like the sand can seep right through your fingers so can all your days

As those days go by you'll have me there to help you find the way.

The way I feel with you I know it's got to last forever.

And when the rain begins to fall

you'll ride my rainbow in the sky

And I will catch you if you fall

you'll never have to ask me why.

Time goes by so fast

You've got to have a dream

To just hold on.

All my dreams of love began

With the reality of you.

You and I believe

That all our dreams will last forever.

And when the rain begins to fall

you'll ride my rainbow in the sky

And I will catch you if you fall

you'll never have to ask me why.

Though the sun may hide

We still can see

The light that shines for you and me

We'll be together all that we can be.

And when the rain begins to fall

you'll ride my rainbow in the sky

And I will catch you if you fall

you'll never have to ask me why.

And when the rain begins to fall I'll be the sunshine in your life

You know that we can have it all and everything will be alright.

Jermaine Jackson

love,

waniey

when words become a poem

I am your moon and your moonlight too

I am your flower garden and your water too

I have come all this way, eager for you

Without shoes or shawl

I want you to laugh

To kill all your worries

To love you

To nourish you

im so in love with rumi's poem . i started to read his poem/ books las year when one of 'i dont know who' give me those beauty words. i read it everytime i received emails from 'i dont know who'. i am so in love with those poems and wondering about those words. who wrote it? m intrigued to know more. then i google it myself and found out that it was the saying of rumi. a great poet in 13th century. also known as Jalal-al Din Muhammad rumi .a persian.a sufi.jurist and thelogian. his work was famous in all over the Muslims world. his words really inspiring, give me a goosebumps.make me thinking, make me ponder.really change the way i perceived life.love....moved me into the stage where i can find my soul....and i really really fall in love with him! recommended!

my collection so far =)

here some quotes from rumi that i received from 'whom that i dont know' . for him/her. thank you for introducing me to rumi =) :-

The minute I heard my first love story,

I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere,

they’re in each other all along.

The springtime of Lovers has come,

that this dust bowl may become a garden;

the proclamation of heaven has come,

that the bird of the soul may rise in flight.

The sea becomes full of pearls, the salt marsh becomes sweet as kauthar,

the stone becomes a diamond from the mine,

the body becomes wholly soul.

I am in Love with Love and Love is in love with me.

My body is in Love with the soul and the soul is in Love with my body.

I opened my arms to Love

and Love embraced me like a lover.

Muhasabah Cinta

Wahai pemilik nyawaku

Betapa lemah diriku ini

Berat ujian dari Mu

Kupasrahkan semua pada Mu

Tuhan baru kusadar

Indah nikmat sehat itu

Tak pandai aku bersyukur

Kini ku harapkan cinta Mu

Kata kata cinta terucap indah

Mengalir berdzikir di kidung do’a ku

Sakit yang kurasa biar

Jadi penawar dosaku

butir butir cinta air mataku

Terlihat semua yang Kau beri untukku

Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini

Ya Illahi Muhasabat cintaku

Tuhan kuatkan aku

Lindungiku dari putus asa

Jika ku harus mati

Pertemukan aku dengan Mu

Peace of mind~i love weekend =)

There aren't enough days in the weekend! i need seven days to be weekend..! hehe. weekend is the only time to release stress after long time working plus studying (partly). and and weekend is the time ive been waiting along the days.

i had a futsal tournament under celcom sports club las saturday! that was amazing game i ever joined.( though only few times play..but thts not the point! as long as i can mingling around is ok kn??) hehe. the tournament was held at countermart futsal ( yeke?) near genting klang. awesome game! hehe...(ok la for beginner like me kn?) here some pics

(majulah sukan untuk negara..hehehe)

is good for me lah actually .can diet ma!! hehe i want more game!!! cewahh! hee..usually i read books on weekends or do laundry..or watch a marathon movies or or makan byk . and rarely do exercise (sometimes lah) .. sometimes ill go somewhere ( kepong area) with my books and looking at people playing kites ( i do it alone taw...) but i feel release....and sometimes i will lepaking and using the whole day lepak at kinokuniya at klcc ALONE... with music there and lots lots of books really can unloose burden in my head. =)

m a type of person who really loves peace and calm places which

is away from city traffic and chaos. it depends on my mood sometimes. if i feel like to go to the place where there are lots of people ill go there. and vice versa. but mostly i opt for calm and peace places. sometimes they called me weird n nerd. but i dont mind, this is how i free my mind. i love to listen to music too. any kind of music. i believe music can bring excitement and energy as well. i use to listen to music even when i do my laundry..hehehhhehe ( pas2 berangan kejap)=). i regain my extra energy when i listen to music ( haha). but yes. i love it!

now my weekend filled with activites. sometimes i'd go for cycling with my fren. or walking around uia ( kt belakang tasik) then sembang2. or writing and updating blog. hmm wut else? ohhh if i am at kampung, i help my mother do chores or anything like cooking, baking ( tgn didada mata ke atas) and whatnot. i love to write letters too ( if xcaye tny my bf =) ) . whenever i feel stress i like to express it through writing. i can write everything i want ( facebook? nahhhh!! too dangerous to say something though it is ur facebook!..PELIK!).

ABOUT STRESS...it is important to know our stress level. this is because stress will make us feel down and out. and sometimes can break a relationship also. have ever saw someone who in depress lose their temper? kn? most of them kn. why? i think it is because of the high level of adrenaline in our body, thus we tend to be panic and lead to unnecessary action taken including losing temper...haaaa (penat ak buat ayat). so control ur mood, breath slowly and stop then smell the roses..hehehe

most important, you have to know how to manage stress and wut kind of activities that can release stress....=)

i had enough to say. DOT.

nex :

i nak picnin cmni !!!! heee

love,

waniey =)

memoirs of elizabeth gilbert and woman's rights

i read two books of her.mainly eat.pray love and almost done reading the sequence of it. committed. awesome books . is all about women, career, life, love and how we perceive our life. it was fascinating to read her books, to understand her life , love story in which a bit relates to my personal life. i admired her , of her strength to struggle to pursue what life is all about. women nowadays i believe is facing the same too. in her first book, eat.pray.love shows that she struggle to find herself back when she starts to travel around after her relationship failed. her strong will really affected me somehow. i know that in our life we will be confronting a hard times that we cannot even breathe or think and during that time we need someone to be with us. The essence of relationship between people is very much important in order to help us encounter every problem that come. women have to be strong, in reality, though we always become an agenda of debate relating to rights and freedom, women nowadays becoming more matured. the saying that woman is weak is inadequate, we have prove it to the world.

we have a debate in class relating to the saying "behind every successful man there is a woman". i truly believe that the above saying is true ( dont you think so?)..but i just curious why dont people say " behind every successful woman there is a man?" it was bizarre, and i believe that woman doesnt need man's help to survive after all. ( sounds so feminist...hehe). woman perhaps needs man to share, to love, to care but without man, we still can live...frankly speaking, i dont think man can do the same, to some degree, men will live in total lost if there is no woman besides them ( kan...? betol x?). well, dont get yourself perplexed by my thought, i jus wanna share my experience as what i can see most of women success due to her own effort. and...wihout any support from man..a growing number of women today received a higher education and have show capabilites in the work force and still they manage to success in both career and family life. generally, the mentality of the people especially Malays inclined to think that woman has to work only for family, live at home, take care of the children and husband, such perception is totally wrong, Islam assuredly say that woman is responsible in taking care of her husband and be loyal to him, a guardian of his property in other words to serve the husband as required in Islam. that's the role of woman in Islam, Islam doesnt say anything about woman has to take care of all like cooking, do laundry, and whatnot. but the mentality is still presume that woman has to do all kind of job. and it remains until now. to the certain extent, women are self-reliant and strong-minded that what i can say based on what i see.

i have seen many woman survive alone without any support from man but too little that man live alone. ( betol x?...ade ke??)...woman has been integrated into the development process since 1975 under United Nation resolution. Since then, women's interest and need are protected. In Malaysia, women's however is different from one culture to another, the stereotype about the gender is different in accordance to the culture as well as religion itself. as i put myself clear that in Islam, woman's right is protected. no doubt about it. but somehow people's mentality draw a different interpretation about Islam in protecting women's rights. (a very narrow minded people).

With regards to elizabeth's novels, it it astonishingly brilliant when it come to woman's struggle to find a true meaning of life, love in which it is related to our day to day life. i am very enjoy reading it and come to relate between her life and many other women in this world including me. =) two books that really affected me by all means. =) recommended!

i am now reading this :

weekends of joy~

las few weekends i had a great vacation ( all i can say). hee =) and i loved it. though hectic week i had las weekend with a bunch of unwashed clothes...messy room..hmm..but i dont care...substantial rewards awaits me! heee =)

Hometown coming : 27th May 2011

i went back to kedah attending my cousin's wedding. an awesome wedding! with makan2...i enjoyed so much! with children run here n there...enjoying the lovely glow of burning

gunpowder..i got myself groomed. hehe.yes! dah mcm artis kene makeup...but on the reception day..i refused to makeup...sbb nmpak over la plak..hehe...makan xyah ckp...smp meja pon nk telan...mcm kebuluran bru balek dr perang dunia ketiga gamaknye...mmg best!!! all family gathered..BEST!!!!

i burst into tears when i have to go back to kl ( xsukaa kl!)

JB trip : 4th June 2011

i arrived at jb with smile ear to ear .... muhammad faiz patiently waiting fo

r me .. then we go makan2 whilst waiting for dila...mmuaah! to muhammad faiz...he lack of sleep because of two of

us..million of thanks..

we check in @ tune hotel ( a.k.a hotel budget) at 2.00pm..tiring yet exciting to wait for tomorrow trip..again we go for dinner and again en muhammad faiz pick us up..then we go jalan2 around JB..went passing by danga bay ( dah mlm sgt)...

Singapore trip : 5th June 2011

now come an exciting trip ...hehe ..we arrived universal studio Singapore at 10 am. the weather was not so good..raining all day . but we dont care. dila and i was so exciting. we've been planning long time ago to spend time togehther (despite the fact tht it was a short notice for me..hehe) . i enjoyed so much...!dila and i spent the whole day walking around the universal studio n snap

pictures everywhre..sampai pancit.lenguh2 kaki. haha..then we went back to hotel at almost

10pm...satisfied even though the rain stop at 3pm...wet the whole day . hehehe..

here a few pics of dila n i

Muar trip : 11th June 2011

from kl to muar with love...heheh...i went to muar las week...intentionally to meet and greet the ' mother-in-law' wannabe..(katernye) PLUS and to visit my best friend : wawa muncit!!! heee...i was so happy to see her after a long time..she's now pregnant with two months old. dah muncit pon...heee =) ..very exciting muar ..this is my third times been there..but for the first n 2nd visit i didn explore much..this time byk jalan2..heee...best! makan satay muooo..weehuu!! ( nak lagiiii)

so that was my weekends .. enjoyable..this week plus nex week gonna be more n more enjoyable week, this week i main futsal n nex week m going to be a 'sukarelawan tangkas' under Global Peace Mission.. it is a NGO programs in which i join them in 2009..but not actively participate..n this is the time for me to take part in their activities..cant wait!! yehuuu!!!!!

Done.

With love,

Waniey =)

the good that we hate

i have seen so many people in my life and observed different kind of behaviour they possessed. my life is simple. if they can accept me. my pleasure for me to be one of them. i can get along with anyone i like.nothing unusual if we hate someone. (in polite tone...uneasy with someone we know).. sometimes i found it funny but they said that is the sauce added in ur food of life..good or bad , .like or not, i have to accept it. observe and learn is more important than anything else. Allah said in the Quran " enjoin what is good and forbid what is wrong". i dont noe why sometimes i got a weird feeling about something that is nothing to do with me at all.in the corner of my mind i always put a negative view about something tht i dont even familiar with.recently i saw someone's post something on facebook. nothing peculiar about post a shout and upload some pics on facebook, but i feel tht kinda of person try to boast like ' i am rich, i can afford it, i have money, who cares'. reasons y i said so..ok..he uploaded some pics showing tht he was admitted to the hospital...i accepted that. but i wonder why every time he uploaded pictures he will include wht hospital he was admitted to together with wut kind of ward he is staying during the admitting period...hmmm ( sounds like m jealous of him?) m not jealous but to some extent i am wondering about his intention of doing tht... maybe m so paranoid of observing people's behaviour, categorizing it in different category tht i hve create my own ( bahaya aku ni).

some people becoming 'big-headed' if they think they are most brilliant among others, ironically, they are but adamant of accepting other's opinion. they always right and we always wrong. they used sarcastic words to upset others. see ... m observing...haha..but i failed to conclude any..is not a research pon..but i learn from what i see...Islam encourages us to do a good deed, as long as it is not against shariah, we can hold onto it. husnuzun is encourages too...so no more negative thinking especially to people tht we dont even noe him/her ( untuk diri sendiri)..

Disclaimer : this messages in only for the writer. the writer concerns about herself of being "minah kepo" tht she most hated before. strictly to remind her to be good nex time..insyaAllah

addiction...

"All you have to do is to pay attention; lessons always arrive when you are ready, and if you can read the signs, you will learn everything you need to know in order to take the next step" - Paulo Coelho

p/s : owh m so addicted to coelho's novels rite now ( boleh x nk demand buku2 dia buat hantaran?) ...like like like 100 juta kali!

i am so happy when i am with you

few weekends past but i still feel the excitement =) faiz and i had a great weekends together. we go hiking and tht was a great moment ever! i always wanted to have this kind of activities but i have no partner of doing it. Apart from love to read books on weekend i actually love to travel around with someone that i loved the most =) ( in case u dont noe).. i like cycling, hiking, skydiving and whatnot. seriously but time now is a matter of fact. ( due to i have already found someone who can accompany me..heeeee). but the past weekends was a trip down memory lane =) . faiz and i spent time together and it was such a great moment that make me wanna write it here to share with..=)

Broga hill 7th May 2011

it was friday nite( though it almost 2.00am) when faiz arrived here (kl) safely from JB straight away to uia to pick me up. we have to be there before the sunrise. since it was 2.00 in the morning then we decided to go lepaking before heading to the broga hills. we had supper at malinja recommended by faiz . ( char kewtioew sedappp).. i had my hot nescafe intending to stay awakes all night until the dawn. i was very excited that day, firstly because i hv plenty of time to spend with faiz and secondly my dream will come true and the first list is done!=)

we arrived semenyih about 5.00 in the morning. all things packed accordingly. ready to hike =) haha.. a lot o people there, so not to worry about being lost whilst hiking..=) fist stop...PANCITTT! i thought it was not as high as gunung ledang but i was wrong, tinggi lah jugak boleh buat jantung denyut laju2..hehe ( dah lama tak exercise). it took an hour (yeke) to be at the peak..(byk kali benti) plus amek2 pic ( owhhh pics with him...i xde pic...huuu).. most exciting, we had a chance to see the sunrise! yeahhhhh!!!! really enjoy!!!!

i am very happy. tht is all i can say =)) up there we took a lot of pictures..hehe...then cane nk turun??? tht was too peaky up there and a bit slippery. so you have to wear a shoe tht has a good grip so that can balance you while u hiking down the hills. i turun meniarap okeh haha...abeh comot bju...hehe

we got things packed at almost 8.00 in the morning and decided to find a place to bath..dah peluh2 sume...nex trip adalah waterfall kt ulu yam!! hehehe =) we go mandi2 and picnic there since we didnt have our breakfast yet. sgt bes!!!! yeah! ( nak pegiii lagiiiiiiii)..

so that was my weekends with him...lot more activities waiting for us =) .. we planning ( well my planning actually) to go for cycling at bukit cerakah soon...=)

i jus wanna shout ( I AM HAPPYYYYYYYY) yeahh !!! lari lompat2!

p/s i wish to have a skydiving soon!!!!! =)

i have to reach the star that i always wanted

THANK YOU....!!

" i want to have my master degree!!!!" shout out loud!

lately the word " QUIT" always appeared in my mind..too much and m tired. i cant go on anymore and with the result i got i cant even breathe! they keep pushing me towards wut should i achieve in my life. i noe they put their highest expectation on me. and m scared that i will dissapointed them in another way. i cant stop walking! no matter what. i must keep goin to the way tht i chose . to the lights and to where my foot gonna take me. tough m tired.thirsty or even broke......! i have to! i have no choice. im completely distress!

i work for my school tht make me think that m special as compared to others. no reason for me to quit as early as the beginning. Success is measure to how many times you fall. is not like you hv a good time for the entire life. yes! i found my tone! my colour! and i hold onto it and keep praying for streghtness fromAllah. May His blessing will be upon me always. InsyaAllah.

im sorry for my rudeness, for the slip of my tongue. and for everything. things turn to be blurred away.. and m sorry again =( my bad.

i cant quit now. help me to walk.guide me. and coach me. i cant make this happen w/out support from whom i love =(

A friend in need is a friend indeed

well...for the first entry i want you to define FRIEND! hmmm is easy to have friend.. u go to shopping mall say hye to anyone u like then u can make friend with him/her. simple as abc.. but to have real friend is much difficult.! am i right? or am i not?depends on how u define friend. for me friend is like ur own shadow.fren resembles you. like ur another hand. it give and it take. give and take.YES! is worth to have fren that always near when you are in need. FRIEND when u r in need is indeed a true fren. but ..unfortunately . in real life. is difficult to have a friend like that! seriously! though wutever you do to have such fren like wut u wanna have. u cant have them. u cant simply rely on ur fren whenever u need them. i experienced it many times. frens come and they go. they wont stay if i want them to stay. i give but i didnt receive wut i deserved. unfair! the very simple reason that they will tell u is the word BUSY! lame excuse. cant accept it.. me myself can escaped from the word busy. i have to work. i have to study. on weekend have to go to library find sources for my thesis... tell me do i hv time for myself? but still ALHAMDULLILLAH... i never disappoited my near yet bes fren. ask me go out. I WILL ..MY LEVEL BEST to say yes. so tell me! is busy is a good excuse to escape from ur fren????tell me!

i wrote something on my facebook last friday and it's sounds like "i can accept if u dont have time to hang out w ur fren or or time to go to kenduri or lepaking...but i cant accept if u dont hv time to reply ur fren's msg though ur facebook status is GREEN =) ur sorry doesnt mean anything =)" i feel dissapointed with one o my fren well many of my frens i can say. i try my best to keep our relationship work. frens forever. well i guess i cant control human behaviour. it is dynamic and dynamic behaviour cant be control. thts so tru. i got lots of comments when i posted some ' frustrated-statement' like tht. some said it is difficult to satisfy all people. YES it is. but we can somehow try to avoid it from happen. try to take care of LOVE that we have. try to take care of HEART of the people so that at the end we get want we supposed to get. Allah says in the Quran that we have to take care of the relationship between brothers and sisters. we are all brothers and sisters. IS IT DIFFICULT TO SAY HYE BACK IF UR SISTER SAY HYE TO YOU??? MY GOD i cant accept such a ridicilous excuses! feel frustrated! betrayed, useless ! all combined in....hmmm WHY? because i dont react like tht as i can remember.. at least i will say 'hello' back if i am soooooo busy then i will say i am busy now cant talk to you too long...tht's it! is it difficult? ok i wanna ask you DO YOU THINK SHE/HE WILL REACT THE SAME IF HER/HIS BF SMS/TEXT HER/HIM??? ( from the bottom of your heart) will she do the same???? MY SINCERE ANSWER i think she wont! but why you cant even reply ur fren's msg? why???

hmmmm.... tht is why i feel even more frustrated! i noe her since i was in a secondary school...it does matter for me. i dont noe wut you guys think. maybe m too sensitive. but it happened to me many times. hmmm...my heart broke entirely. and the word sorry break me even more =(

p/s i bet if u do the same thing to ur bf/gf ... ur relationship wont last forever..so do fren =) lucky i still have fren who understands me well. ukhwah fillah!!!

i do not need a reason to be angry with you!

sorry is not enough to repay ur guilty.

but is ok.time heals all wounds.

i do whatever it takes to forgive you.

cause i have no reason to be angry with you.

m sorry.my heart closed.no room for you.

i've locked it long time ago.

and i forgot where i put the key.

and m sorry for not being good while this time.

because im tired of taking care of your heart

and m not a good carekater

i gave my heart once

you broke it

stomp on it

pieces by pieces i mend it

to get it back to where it belong

to give it to someone who can take care of it

and someone is not you

am sorry for being rude

but i think you deserve it

Nota Hati~

Andai dia pergi dariku, ku bisikan ke dalam hatiku yang paling dalam.dia bukan milikku. dan aku pun bukan miliknya. Al Malik Pemilik haqiqi.kita hanya amanah.sampai masa terpaksa diserah.Jangan ada rasa dimiliki dan jangan ada rasa memiliki. Bila terasa sepi, jangan katakan aku sepi, tapi katakan padaku sentiasa ada Pemerhati.aku tidak sepi." ana abdullahi walan yudhi'ani"

p/s Andai dia bukan milikku~

The boyfriend~

i chit chat with my officemate jus now...n m not satisfied yet feel insulted when he said tht i got too many scandals...huh?? WTH? i dont..according to him, i wrote too many post on facebook describing that i hv scandals with diffrent guys...such a BIG SURPRISE for me...YA ALLAH..i think because there are one of two frens that i always hang out with...bes fren of mine...ONE..GOT MARRIED ALREADY! he is an albanian..he always wrote/ comments on my wall because i got stalked with one of my classmate..and and he try to protect me from tht guy with pretending that he is my boyfriend...THE TRUTH IS .. HE MARRIED ALREADY...is that count as SCANDALS to you? common lah!!! dont interupt in one's conversation if you do not know wut are they talking about..is like you got on train but you dont noe where your train is taking you...huh!

I WAS SURPRISED when both of them said the same thing at once! SKODENG MY FACEBOOK KE????huuu...

n latest post pasal I WANNA GET MARRIED pon jd issue ke? everyone wants to get married kn? sapa xnak kawen? and kawen 2 satu ibadah salah ke i post kt my wall yg i nak kawen? SALAH KE???

MALAYS are MALAISE!!!!

jus feel insulted the way they said tht i got many scandals..THE TONE!huh...I NEVER HAD BOYFRIEND SINCE I BROKE UP WITH MY EX! if u dont noe anything about me, jus shut ur mouth up...zipped it! just be SHHHH...shut ur face silence! dont say a word! if u wanna noe things...ASKED ME PLEASE! m here to answer you...ok...no biggie! i forgive both of you...jus wanna speak my mind here with blogging..mm

ihatepeopletalkingattheback,

waniey